Recently I got together with my friends, Alex Robinson, Katherine & Fitzy to record a podcast. We’ve been having great conference calls these past few months and they have proved to be powerful and revelatory. I think we’ve found a line of thinking that couldn’t come from any one person, it took a group to accomplish it. Actually, it took this group to do it, this was meant to happen how it has so far.
The podcast is a continuation of the “Women’s Show” on The Rebel Path. I had a part in that as well, as some might recall, Alex asked me to write down some words to read on air. What I came back with was a bit too… technical. So, I went back and gave a much more personal account of my experience. Which for that show, was much more fitting. Although I find what I wrote initially still holds true, to the nature of these discussion.
It’s one thing to put you and your thoughts out into the world, but another to have that be received, understood and accepted. From reaching into yourself and bringing up words that have since lost meaning to you, it’s a curious sight to see other people gain something from them. To show you, they do and have always mattered. Ranging from personal trauma to unspoken guidelines of society, no topic is looked down upon, everything is handled with respect. It has been a lot more rewarding than therapy sessions could ever be, because you’re not alone, you aren’t the “client”, you’re an equal. Dissecting thoughts and experiences can be such a weight off your shoulders, no longer can they control you once they’re put on the examining table. Distancing yourself from such an intimate yet toxic part of your conscious allows you to finally heal.
The healing aspect is important to note. I’ve gone from a bleak acceptance of my depression to now having trouble remembering when was the last time I even felt that way. I know exactly when it was, when I started taking part in these conversation. When I was finally able to be heard. Putting this podcast out is both a gift to the listeners and to myself. I have found the tools necessary to build a new reality, one that wasn’t laid out before me. One of my own choosing.
In the podcast we broach a subject that I’ve had to deal with a lot, that we all have. This Jehovian Virus™ we’ve uncovered is basically running the show of modern society. I’m currently working on a separate article to go into it in depth, stay tuned for that. Until then, enjoy the gift of a living conversation.